Life In Suburbia

What up Dog?

Well....I feel like I'm abandoning the old bloggie woggie.  It's just that I am living as a minimalist at my house lately with no internet and no cable t.v.   (not by choice of course, damn money)   So it's not that I don't love the bloggie, but you know.  getting to the cafe to get free internet, actually being able to think at said internet cafe, and then typing?  too much!!!

But...here I am today.  A free day.  Actually my last until I start work on Monday.  Oh yeah, you read that right.  I got a job.  Don't get too excited for me, it's just a security guard job like the one I had in Denver, but hey!  I'll be able to pay my own rent and car payment!  Oh the freedom!  Not that I don't like Nick's money, but I do get tired of asking him for cash all the time. 

Things are going well down here.  A little hairy the last few weeks with moving requests, moving in requests, and such, but all is resolved now.   

Oliver's soccer has begun, and I'll say he's doing better this season than he has in the past.  Still a bit on the air-headed side, but you know.  He's 6.  Well, he'll be six  on Saturday.  SATURDAY!  We are having a party for him at my house on Sunday at 4pm.  If you are in the OKC and want to attend, just drop on by!  Nothing big this year...it's been a big enough year so far and I just don't have the energy (or money) to do anything else. 

What else?  The kiddos are going to Florida with my parents for a week this summer...yippee!   And possibly heading to England for Auntie Rachel's wedding!  :(   I am sad not to be there. 

I guess this is why I don't write anything on my blog anymore.  Not that entertaining.  But you know what made me laugh out loud this morning? Two things. 
1.  This post on Friday Playdate.
2.  This Jimmy Kimmel video...

Every TIME I WATCH IT I PEE MY PANTS....

Oliver and Charlotte

It's been awhile since I posted pics of the kiddos, so here ya go.  I know you are all dying to see them and how big they've gotten.  :)  Charley is now officially three, and Oliver will be six in 10 days.  Crazy fast.
pirate oliver

three is attitude

pajama time

i swear!  I'm an angel!

it's the eyes that get me.

too much

Too much seriousness on here as of late.  more funnies to come.  :)

Time

Time is perspective. People have told me that for the last (I can hardly believe it) 4 months. That things would get better and that I wouldn’t be devastated and depressed every day from now on. I thought they were full of shit. But you know what? They were right. 

 

People in my life have kind of thought I’ve lost my mind in the last month. They are worried, thinking that what I am doing or how I am feeling is ‘wrong’, or not healthy or just plain weird. I’ll admit that I get sucked into that, and spend a day wondering if how I am handling this separation/divorce is the right way? Or am I wrong? But at the end of the day, this is my life. My relationships. My way of dealing with it. Who is to say who is right and who is wrong? What is the right way to deal with my relationship with nick, his girlfriend, and the guy I am seeing? Did I just blow all of your minds? That seems to sum up all of our friends and acquaintances reaction. 

But you know what? I feel so much better after having honest conversations with everyone involved, and I think that it has taken some of the awkwardness out of the situation. I am no longer wondering what she is like, what are they like together, and why? And vice-versa with nick and the guy I am seeing. 

 

I am tired of everyone putting their preconceived notions of right and wrong on my life. It’s my life. I will deal with it in the best way I know how. Divorce isn’t a black and white situation. It’s gray. And right now? I am having a good time. I was talking to my friend Joel the other day and he asked me how I was doing. I responded with “Good”. He said, ‘it’s good to hear that answer from you, it’s been awhile since I heard you say that’. 

 

And that friends, pretty much sums it up. 

Three

We are now entering the scariest year of the preschool years.  Three.  Yes, two kicked our ass, but three?  Three will bring us to our knees. 

Happy Birthday Charley-Girl.  Love you.

A Week

It's been almost a week since I've had internet access....my days have been long.  haha!

not a whole lot to write about.  oliver had his last basketball game ever today, followed by the dreaded end of the season party.  Mel, you know what I'm talking about!! 

Oliver and Charley are off to my mom and dad's tomorrow.  They are leaving early in the am and won't be back till the following monday evening!  WOOT!!  Mommy Break!!!

Which means....I'll be missing Charley  girl's 3rd birthday.  :(   Right now, that doesn't seem too bad because she is screaming her lungs out at me.  I'm sure by tuesday I'll be a little sad. 

What else?  OH yeaH!!!!  I'm coaching Oliver's soccer team starting this April.  Watch this space for funny stories and for maybe (if you're really lucky) coach Brooke in action. 

What more could you ask for?

Happy Birfday

To Nick.  Hope you have a lovely day and that you enjoy the kiddos.  love you.

 

stuff stuff stuff

Lots of stuff in my brain today.  Nick and I are officially getting divorced...in case any of you had doubts about it, it's happening.

I am actually doing so well with it ( I mean, I still have my days, but you know).  It surely can only be the grace of god that I am ok with situations in his life/my life.  seriously. 

been thinking a lot about the universe.  you know..universal thoughts.  positive out, positive in, negative out, negative in.  karma, and so on and so forth. the interconnectivity of everyone's spirit.  i think there is a lot there.  if you project positive energy/feelings, then positive things/energy will come to you.  that's my new golden rule.  well, not so new, but i am consciously trying to do that daily.   

my kids.  overwhelm me sometimes, but then i look at them when they are asleep and they take my breath away. 

nick's birthday is on sunday.  it's kind of weird not to be 'going out' for his b-day together.  first time in 7 years.  strange.  i hope he has a beautiful day with the kids. 

my charlotte is going to be three years old in 12 days.  that is insane.   i keep forgetting to bring my camera with me (because i am w/o internet access at home lately) b/c i have some new great pics. 

my friend sean was in town on sunday.  always good to see him.  hang out, good people. 

have i rambled long enough????  ha! 

hiya

    Well, day three of reentry is going well. 

i don't have anything earth shattering to say, but I'm going to type and maybe something will come.???

my charley girl is lovely.  crazy hair but lovely.  had a scare of the flu on first day back, but she's in the clear...

oliver is funny.  you who know my kids know that they wake up at the asscrack of dawn. i mean really early. the last 3 mornings i've had to wake him up at 745 to get up for school.  what???????????

no pics from the denver trip.  so you will just have to suffice with the information that apparently mel and i try too hard when dancing at lodo's and people thought i was a hooker on sunday night when jumping into joelie's car in the middle of the street. 

ha.

Peace

Man.  It has been a great freakin' weekend.  I'm in Denver alone for the weekend - the kids are at home w/ Nick and his dad.  It has been such a needed break.  It's amazing what a little time away will bring - perspective. 

Got to see people I love and who love me.  What more could you ask for?